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Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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1:12 pm
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( See i_hate_sissi's results. )
Well... that was... certainly... interesting.
Yes.
So everything's been quiet around here lately. School still isn't in session, interestingly enough. I don't think it starts until September 19th. (We get in LATE.) Right now there are some classes and summer extra credit stuff going on in the afternoons, but that's it. (Actually, I think they've been working on some sort of drama production too.)
I'm actually sort of looking forward to the new year; and I'm not sure why, which is strange. I mean, school is school... and it's.... definitely not my favorite passtime. But this endless summer thing is kind of starting to get to me. I need a little more structure with my time.
Maybe I could get in on that drama production. Haha.
current mood:  bored
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| Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
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8:06 pm
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I'm more bored right now than I've ever been in my entire life. Well, maybe that's a little overly dramatic, but... nah.
Speaking of drama, Emily slapped Sissi today. *sniggers* I wasn't there to see it myself (though I'd've paid a LOT to have seen it) but Yumi did. She said it was hilarious. (She also said something else about how it would have been funny if Sissi had slapped her back, but I think Emily is on LJ now, so I better not talk about that.)
Jeremie's telling me he needs to get back on his computer (but of course...to talk to Aelita, no doubt) so sorry for the tiny entry, but I have to go. Later.
current mood:  blah
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| Friday, July 22nd, 2005
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11:26 am
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It's been a pretty sucky few weeks around here. Everyone... not just the people who know about what happened to Odd... seem like they've been sulking. Hell, the fucking bricks on the school wall seem sad.
So yes. It's been gloomy around here. Not much to do about that, though.
I can tell Odd's been trying to be not-so-sad now. But he's different, and that's.... semi-creepy, I guess. And Jeremie's been spending more time than usual in his room. Xana has been quiet lately too.
As much sympathy as I feel for everyone in this situation, it's really bugging me. I need to go somewhere and get out of my head for a while or something...
current mood:  discontent
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| Saturday, May 28th, 2005
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10:01 pm
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God, I tell you, if it isn't an evil computer trying to kick your ass, it's my best friend's dad trying to literally kill her.
He... uh... he stabbed her. With a broken beer bottle. She came to the school last night with gashes spilling blood all over her face and arms and a pretty deep on over her stomach. I let her into Odd's and my room, and she sat down on my bed with our help. She just sat there for a moment, and then she started to cry.
Then.. she passed out.
I can't tell you how scared Odd and I were. We ran and got Jim, who called 911 in a hurry. They took her away, and I got to ride with her in the ambulance. Unfortunately, Odd had to stay behind with Jim, and I'm sure I left him to go through the 3rd degree all by himself. ^^;;; (Sorry about that, Odd.)
Anyway, Yumi's in the hospital yet again... her second long-term stay this month.
*sigh* This is going to have to end eventually. I don't care what her dad is saying threat-wise now... I want Yumi to be safe even if that means I'll be in danger.
I'm going to tell someone. I can just let her stay at a hospital crying and wishing she were dead.
current mood:  disturbed
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| Saturday, May 21st, 2005
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1:35 pm
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Aelita's here. She and Jeremie have gone... out. *wink*
Yumi was at the factory when we materialized Aelita, but she disappeared later. She seemed kind of... weird. And she always had her hand covering her eye...
I tried to call her but she's not picking up. *sigh*
Odd is also missing. I have a sneaking suspicion he went out with Samantha, though.
As for me... nothing. Just hijacked Jeremie's computer while he was out. lol. I'm waiting for my cell to ring... because I left Yumi a voicemail saying to call me back.
I guess to pass the time I'll do one of those surveys that are so popular.
( I wish Yumi would call me and tell me everything was okay )
She still hasn't called back.
current mood: anxious
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| Friday, May 20th, 2005
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12:23 am
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12:19 am - Uhh...
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This week = roller coaster.
Yumi... told me things... and... ehh... I wanted to tell her things too... but then I couldn't... and I was afraid to even talk to her for a while, so I think she thought I was avoiding her.
But then I found out something *else* about her. In a few words, her dad is the biggest fucker you could ever meet.
I'm not sure what to do. Yumi doesn't want us to tell anyone...
current mood: worried
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| Saturday, March 5th, 2005
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12:43 am - A strange reunion
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(entry blocked for everyone except ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) super_nuclear, jbelpois, purple_spaz, and __mystery_girl)
That was amazingly scary.
He actually killed someone this time, guys. Xana. He killed that little boy with no thought, no emotion. He would have killed others, too. But at least we stopped that.
But I still feel guilty.
Taking over our pets? That was a strange attack. Kiwi just started trying to kill everyone (he bit Tamiya and me too!) and so many others were affected. That little boy's skull was crushed in his dog's jaws.
Can you imagine what that must have been like... and what about his parents now? They must be so heartbroken.
God, that freaks me out. And to be honest, it's really tearing me up inside. I don't know how long I can live with this on my shoulders...
It was just yesterday that Jeremie told me what was going on, and that Aelita had felt pulsations. He told me that we *HAD* to contact the group. But I was still mad at Odd and I was convinced I could beat Xana alone (or maybe with Yumi's help). But in Lyoko things got pretty heavy... we were losing fast. By the time Yumi got there, I was almost completely out of lifepoints. And then, I don't know how Jeremie did it, but he got Odd to come to Lyoko too. He and Yumi are the real heros here. They're the ones who didn't fail.
As for me... I could have done more. I could have blocked that last shot with my katana and I certainly could have blocked the one that almost took away 30 of Aelita's lifepoints. But I was... careless. I was angry... I guess. And I couldn't focus and...
And I think I'm responsible for that kid's death, you guys.
I've talked to Odd, and I suppose we're back to being friends again. But he's been quiet lately. Really quiet and it freaks me out.
And Yumi's been mostly herself, though her parents are still getting a devorce. I don't know quite how it is that she seems to be taking this so well. If I were her... I would be on the verge of a breakdown or something. :P
Breaking down would be the easy way out, I guess.
Guys... as hard as it is for me to admit, I'm not doing so well. Actually, I'm really... really not happy. I don't know if I can get over this, and that scares me.
current mood: guilty
current music: It's Gonna Kill Me- Filter
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| Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
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11:16 pm
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Well, I saw Yumi a few days ago. She looked even worse than I had imagined, paler than usual and cold and tired and scared and...the works, basically.
Of course, she tried her best to mask all that behind smiles, and of course, a single response to my question "are you okay": "I'm fine Ulrich"...and her eyes continued that sentence with, "I'm fine Ulrich, just shut the hell up about it already..."
So... I tried not to piss her off with that question anymore. Didn't work.
We started talking, but the conversation was pretty one-sided. (She was really quiet, which felt weird. Usually she's the one who does most of the talking, not me.) Not that that wouldn't be understandable, but I really wanted to make her feel better somehow. So I asked her that horrible question one more time. She got pissed. She yelled. I waited. She calmed down. I gave her a hug.
And then I convinced her to let me buy her some food.
So, I took her to a cafe that's not far from school, and we talked a bit. Just about, you know, everything. Her parents, what she was going to do next, and, Odd...
After that I told her she could go back to my dorm and stay there like she did with Jeremie, but she refused. I was going to press her about it, but she just...*cough* kissed me on the cheek and ran away.
Yeah.
I don't know when I'll see her again. I hope some time soon...this situation is getting worse and worse by the day. x_X;; And I haven't seen Odd in forever. The headmaster (and not to mention, about 1,000 other people) are really... not happy about this. To put it lightly, anyway.
current mood: worried
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| Saturday, February 26th, 2005
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3:29 pm - Well, as long as everyone else is doing it...
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I think this has gone too far. From what I hear, Aelita's really not taking this too well. And Jeremie's not exactly ecstatic about it either.
So I'm leaving. I'm going to go find Odd and Yumi.
If I die while I'm gone, tell my dad I said hi. And give Xana another run for his money for me, ok?
current mood: nervous
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| Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
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4:35 pm - ok, just shut up for two seconds...
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I'm sorry for being such an ass. Okay? I'm sorry for making Aelita depressed and Yumi angry and Jeremie worried. I'm sorry for being the moron I am.
Just leave me alone. I don't want to hear about it right now.
current mood:  stressed
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| Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
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6:18 pm
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Well... Odd and I are fighting...
Great.
current mood: guilty
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| Monday, February 21st, 2005
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11:57 am
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Well, eh, life's been pretty much normal around here. *pretty much* being the key words. It's actually sort of ironic that Odd's been acting closest to the norm around here. I mean, I caught Jeremie daydreaming in class. Yes. Jeremie. Daydreaming. IN CLASS.
And I guess I've been acting kinda weird too, at least Yumi must think so. I'm just having problems... being around her. x_x Ever since... what happened... we've been sort of, I don't know, avoiding each other isn't the right phrase. More like avoiding spending much time together alone, I guess. I don't know why this was such a big deal for us. Last time...stuff happened, it was all okay.
It's probably because Odd caught us. That sort of creeps me out. I never want to see Odd kissing anyone, and I REALLY don't want Odd to see ME kissing anyone.
Hell, let's just forget about all of this. The only person who's enjoying this is him. (Who, I have decided, I'll kill one day...)
Well, back to class now. Bye.
current mood: uncomfortable
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| Monday, February 14th, 2005
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7:45 pm
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I'm not sure what to think right now. This is just too weird. But I'll get to that later.
Valentine's Day. My least favorite holiday. Watching people either make out with their significant other or cry their eyes dry while stuffing box after box of chocolate into their stupid, unloved mouths. It's depressing and uneventful and on top of that, I have to be on the lookout for girls trying to get my attention. *coughSISSIcough*
Anyway, here's the big piece of news for the day:
Looks like we've successfully managed to virtualize Jeremie. That's pretty cool, I guess. I'm glad he gets to spend some time in Lyoko with Aelita. Let's hope he doesn't make too big a fool out of himself. :P No, not really. Jeremie wouldn't do that, and even if he did, Aelita wouldn't care.
How very touching. XD
Well, here's the main point of my post...
( cut because I don't want to suffer the embarrassment of seeing this every time I pull up my journal )
Eh. Well, Yumi offered to stay in the factory for a while, just to make sure that nothing went wrong with the Lyoko situation, and Odd went to the Valentine's Day dance with Samantha. I've just been sulking in Jeremie's room, not sure if I should go back to the factory to see Yumi, or just stay here. A part of my mind keeps saying, "dude, go see her, she's bored out of her skull all alone," and the other part just won't let me go.
But I know one thing's for sure: I'm *not* going to the dance. There's no way in hell I'm going there. Sissi will be there... and she's the last person I want to see right now. More so than usual, I mean.
I guess I'll go now... nothing to do here on Jeremie's computer. He doesn't even have any games. Do geniuses just like, not ever play or something? Sheesh, he doesn't even have solitaire. >_
current mood:  embarrassed
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| Saturday, February 12th, 2005
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1:42 pm
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Well, tomorrow I won't be around to hang, Yumi. Sorry about that. Um, looks like I'll be joining Odd in detention. Oops. X_x
You can ask Odd about that, though. *glare*
Has anyone seen Jeremie recently? Aelita? Odd? Anyone? I don't think he's left his dorm for a few days now... I'm getting a little bit worried.
current mood: annoyed
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| Sunday, February 6th, 2005
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5:02 pm - Ugh
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No classes today, which was cool. But I did have a little encounter with the terror of the school. Sissi caught me on my way over to Jeremie's dorm earlier today, and literally tried to kiss me. x_X I wonder if that Off! company that makes mosquito repellent also makes annoying girl repellent? Man, I wish!
But it wasn't so bad. I managed to get away. :P
Anyway, I went over to Jeremie's dorm in the first place because he's been being really...I dunno...persistant (to put it lightly) the last few days at trying to find that anti-virus for Aelita. I was going to try to talk some sense into him, but apparently sleep-deprived-Jeremie is about as much fun to be around as a wild animal ready to rip my lungs out. And trying to talk him into getting some rest? Out of the question. Yep. I definitely failed that time.
*sigh* Maybe Aelita can get him to go to sleep.
Odd has been away most of the time lately, serving detention...well, a LOT of detention. That, coupled with Yumi being too sick to be able to hang out and Jeremie ready to bite my head off... well, let's just say it's been pretty quiet around here. I've been playing a LOT of soccer with Herb and Nicolas lately too, which has been...interesting. I think when it gets to the point that *I'm* asking *them* to play with me is when things get sad. I've been way too bored lately for my own good, and that's not cool or fun.
I also talked to Emily today. I haven't really... talked to her in a while. Not since what happened last time, anyway. I've noticed that she never sticks around long when Yumi's around, which is weird. But today she wasn't in quite so much of a hurry.
Whatever. It doesn't really matter. Anyway, even though I really don't have anywhere else to be right now, I think the librarian is starting to get mad that I'm using one of the computers here for reasons other than research. I guess that means I've gotta go. Later.
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| Saturday, February 5th, 2005
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4:56 pm
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FRIENDS ONLY MINUS super_nuclear
So, yeah, I finally talked to Yumi, and everything's cool with us now.
I guess, anyway. I still don't know who it is she likes, and I'm still too much of a coward to tell her I like her myself. *Whacks head on desk repeatedly* I really... wish I could. But I just can't. I've always been this way. I've always been too ashamed or embarrassed with myself to admit anything to anyone.
*Sigh* well, anyway, I'm going out to play soccer.
current mood: melancholy
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| Sunday, January 30th, 2005
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7:22 pm
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Okay, that's it... I'll go see Yumi.
I haven't heard from her at all in days. Maybe Jeremie and Odd have, I don't know. But she sure isn't talking to me.
I hate it when this happens. >_< Espeically when it's because *I'm* the one who was being stupid.
I don't even care if she has a new boyfriend or not anymore. I'm going to go talk to her and get everything straightened out... right now.
current mood:  determined
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| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
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7:44 am
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FRIENDS ONLY MINUS super_nuclear
I'm such a loser. >_<
So... yeah. A few days ago was Yumi's birthday. I couldn't confront her because I was afraid of what might happen.
We were... having a party at the factory. I came in the first place because I wanted to talk to Yumi, but I then left because I wasn't sure what to say. Now I'm pretty sure she thinks I hate her, and/or she hates ME. Further more, I can't tell her none of it's true and that I still like her (of course, that's an understatement) because if I talk to her I'm sure the boyfriend issue will come up, and it would just be a mess.
Obviously this is all my fault. I mean, I guess I thought Yumi and I were more than friends, even if that didn't quite mean the full-blown BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND crap. I can never get involved with that shit. Even though I really... want to. I just feel so insecure when I've opened up to someone else though. I can't really explain it other than that.
But now that Yumi likes someone, and someone I KNOW (as she says), I just don't know anymore. I don't want to intrude on her if there IS another relationship she has going on, but it's also like I want to rush in and save her from whoever this guy is... prove that I'm better and I'm all she ever wanted. Or needed.
But I'm not so sure I'm even that anymore to her. And it'll be such a burn when I find out who he is. Especially if it's someone I might be calling friend right now.
What do you suggest I do, guys? I'm at a loss here, and I'm not stable enough to keep going by myself. I know I sound retarded asking for help, but honestly, I don't know what else to do...
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| Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
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7:24 am
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PRIVATE ENTRY
Well, fuck.
So Yumi has a crush on someone.
I always *thought* this day would come, but I never, you know, planned for it. After the whole thing with Theo passed, I guess I just sort of assumed that I'd admit to her the way I feel eventually, and then things would go on from there.
One thing I NEED to learn in life is that things never work out the way I figure they will. e_e
I guess I need to go to school now. Maybe I'll make this a longer entry when class is over.
current mood: disappointed
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